Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Anticipation

I can not say much about this quote other than I LOVE IT.


Joey: How do you remember something that never happened?

Wilder: Fondly. You see, Flaubert believed that anticipation was the purest form of pleasure...and the most reliable. And that while the things that actually happen to you would invariably disappoint, the things that never happened to you would never dim. Never fade. They would always be engraved in your heart with a sort of sweet sadness.



Sunday, March 24, 2013

Spring Break 2013

This is probably a cliche post because I'm sure everyone else did a similar post on how their week vacation was great, but mine really was.
I didn't believe anything could top last years trip to Miami, but my time spent in Myrtle beach this year was just as fun! I'm grateful that both years, I spent my vacations with good friends!

Saturday Night Adventures

Unlike your typical freshman college student, I chose to stay in and watch movies this past Saturday evening. Among the many choices on Netflix, there are only a few I haven't seen. Going through the list, my roommate suggested that The Boy in the Stripped Pajamas was "really good".  So not wanting to watch Bridesmaids or Mean Girls for the 50th time like my roommate also suggested, we agreed to watch this "really good" movie.

Okay now here is my review. It was not good.
The movie was set during the beginning of the Holocaust and based around a boy, Bruno, whose family, or more partially his father, was a Nazi. Not only was he a soldier, but he seemed to be "promoted" to run a concentration camp in which the family had to move. The eight year old Bruno was very curious, and especially desperate to make friends. He went "exploring", and what he found was much more than just a friend.

To cut to the chase, Bruno made friends with another eight year old, except this boy was bound by an electric fence. Their friendship consisted of Bruno sneaking him food and the boy in "pajamas" telling him about the camp. Bruno never really understood that it wasn't just some summer camp, or that his father was the one running things.

Bruno often mentioned the horrible smells the camp let off, and he knew it was wrong how the Jews were treated as servants in his own home. Still, he was desperate to keep his friendship with Shmul and Bruno decided to sneak into the camp so they could find Shmul's father. Little did he know that once he  climbed under that fence, that he was one of them. A few minutes later, you see Bruno, Shmul, and a pack of other Jews in the camp being lead to a building. Its needless to say what happened.

I was crying like a little baby.
Not only was the two boys' deaths upsetting, but throughout the whole movie, you see how Bruno's father and the other soldiers treated the Jews. I believe they even said that Jews were not human. One soldier says in reference to the smell from the camps "they smell even worse when they burn".

That ignorance literally turned my stomach. I was so disgusted with humanity, that not only at this point in time, but many times in history, there was one group of people that though they were so superior to another that they thought they had the right to treat them like animals, to treat them like they were nothing.

My heart hurts.

What is worse is that it wasn't just a movie, such events actually occurred and discrimination because  people are "different' still exist today.


Monday, March 18, 2013

Purpose

Lately, I have just been feeling purpose-less. I go to school, work, and the gym, and of course the remainders of my day consist of eating and sleeping, but that is it. Nothing I do is really important (or I just haven't realized it's importance). I feel like I am just going through the motions, and as I try to organize my thoughts, reassessing my priorities, I just get caught up in the daily events instead of focusing on the bigger picture.

I was just sitting in class today and every thing that we were suppose to be learning, was going in one ear and out the other. As much as I tried to take something from the lecture, it's relevance dissipated as it lingered on....and on...and on. I won't say what class it was, but I can be sure that none of the content that is presented in that particular class is going to be of any use in my future or career.

I just want everything I do to mean something. I want there to be a purpose.
I do not want to waste my time in a class that only provides me with insignificant information I might not ever need again. Take math for example, my career will have nothing to do with X's and Y's and Pythagorean theorem. I hate math. I can do all the basic math equations in my head, and I can tell time on an analog clock. That says a lot when this up-and-coming generation relies solely on their calculators for all their problems.

I mean, I do my work, I get good grades, and then I forget everything I only memorized for the test.

I'm not even certain of the career path I chose. Who is going to take a 4 foot 10 girl serious in law enforcement?

I just need a job where I can travel the world.

But still, whats the purpose in that? So I get to see beautiful places, but I'm not doing anything to better my life.

GAHHHH